A story written by Chekwube Emmanuel… (0703440 1770, [email protected])
Later in the evening, I went to Shania’s house. We left her house for Chitis, it was a bit scanty when we got there. I located the table closer to the one I shared with Cindy the day Shania gave me her number and led her to it. We settled and placed our order when a waiter came. We kept gisting till they served our order.
“You know this is the first time I’m actually taking you out on a date” I started after we ate for a while.
“Yea, and I’m surprised” she replied looking at me.
“There is something I wish to tell you, hope you wouldn’t find it offensive”
“Ok, what is it?”
Before I left for Shania’s house, I was reciting the lines I will use. I wanted to officially ask her out to be my girlfriend. Sometimes when in the comfort of our room, everything seems easy, but when faced with reality, the opposite becomes the case.
Everything I recited varnished from my mind when I needed them. I stared into my food searching my mind for the words I had rehearsed more than a hundred times but couldn’t find them. To make matters worse, each time I raise my head, she will be looking at me.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked as that was the only thing that came to my mind.
“How am I looking at you? Wait are you ok? You are sweating” she said feeling my fore head with her palm.
I didn’t realize that I was already sweating in a cool environment. It wasn’t just my forehead, my palms were sweating too which happens whenever I’m nervous.
“Yes I’m fine. Shania, I’m feeling nervous because for some hours now, I have been reciting a speech which I prepared to present to you but I can’t even find my words any more”. I said smiling sheepishly.
“Come on, is that why you are sweating under this air condition? Ok whatever it is, say it out any how you want?” she said smiling.
This is someone I was already used to but now I couldn’t even look at her face. I tried relaxing myself by taking a sip from my drink to calm my nerves before I continued.
“Shania” I started. “Over time I have found myself thinking more about you. There is this happiness and comfort that I feel whenever I’m around you. I want us to redefine this friendship. I want a relationship with you. I know I have done a lot of sh*t which you know. They say ‘sometimes we tend to lose a diamond while picking stones’. I don’t want to tow that line. You are diamond and I don’t want to lose you picking stones. I don’t know if I deserve you, but if you still find me worthy, please will you be my girlfriend?”
I felt like a load has been lifted off my shoulder when I said my mind. I relaxed back on the chair while we stared at each other. After a while, she cleared her throat and smiled.
“Believe me you caught me unawares. I was expecting the opposite of what you just told me now. Purity you have enough girl drama in your hands already, do you think adding me to it won’t cause you more trouble? I think what you should do now is to sort yourself out first. When that is done then you can know where you stand.
I don’t want to bring more troubles to your life. Don’t see this as a rejection of your offer, I pray you understand me. I want the best for you. I prefer us the way we are now to how you want us to be”
“You are not going to cause me any troubles. I don’t have girl issues anymore. The only girl I still have something to do with is Precious, who right now I don’t know where I stand with her”
“Then go and settle things with her. Precious alone is enough trouble for you. Go and get things straight with her. Remember what I told you before, a bird at hand is worth more than ten in the bush. Go and make Peace with her” she said with smiles.
I looked at Shania and asked myself “were in the name of God is this girl from” I couldn’t fathom it. We spent the rest of the time discussing random issues. I asked her to come spend the weekend in my house but she declined. She said we needed as much time apart as possible for me to make the right decision.
When I got home, I thought so much about what Shania said. She was right, I needed to fix my life. It’s true that I needed to straighten things with Precious. I made up my mind to settle things with Precious that night. I pulled out my phone and dialled her number. While it rang, it struck me that I haven’t even asked her where and who she was staying with. I re-dialled after she didn’t pick for the first time.
“Hello, good evening” she greeted. Precious doesn’t greet me except when she is pissed with me. That has always been her sign of telling me that she is pissed with me.
“Good evening, how are you?”
“I’m fine, sorry I missed your first call”
“It’s ok, where are you?”
“Why do you ask? What do you care?”
“Precious please I want us to settle this once and for all. Please where are you?”
“Don’t worry I will come to your place If you want us to see ok”
“Ok then Can you come around? I want us to talk”
“Ok, I will call you when I get to the gate” she said and dropped the call.
That is a typical Precious, she acts all formal whenever she is pissed. She called after about an hour and I went to the gate to pick her. We barely said a word to each other on our way back to my house.
When we got to my house, she went straight to my reading table and sat, fiddling with her phone. She declined everything I offered her. After several minutes of silence she decided to speak up.
“You needed us to talk?” she asked.
“Yea, but first why are you acting this way?”
“Purity forget the way I’m acting, let’s talk”
“We can’t talk with you acting like this. Precious I know this past week has been very unpleasant for us. I know a lot of things must have been going through your mind. I’m sorry for not asking where you have been staying all these while. With the whole thing that has been happening, it seriously escaped my mind. I’m very sorry”
“Purity since almost two weeks now, you have not cared to ask where I have been staying, so much for someone that claims to care. It’s ok.” She said not looking up.
“I’m very sorry”
“It’s ok, what is it you want us to discuss?”
“Precious, I want us to stop this. I don’t want us doing this believing that one day feelings will grow. I can’t give you that love which you want from me. I have tried to develop that feeling but it’s not forthcoming. Please let’s just end this once and for all”
“Purity, I have two questions to ask you”
“Yea go on”
“Are you doing this because of Oge?”
“No, I already ended things with Oge a very long time ago. This has nothing to do with her”
“Ok. Secondly, am I being a disturbance to you?”
“No, come on. You are not and can never be. I just want us to stop deceiving ourselves. The more we are into this, the more we might prevent each other from meeting the right people. Don’t get me wrong, if only the hands of time could be turned, I know we would have made the best pair.”
She left the table and came to the bed where I was sitting. She kissed my fore head before circling me into an embrace. We hugged for a while before she whispered to my ears, “can I at least pass the night here for the last time?”
“You are not just going to pass the night here, we are going to fetch your bag from where ever you are staying back to this place” I replied her.
Who is Precious without cry, I knew she was crying already behind me so I held her patting her back. No matter the trouble I will have with Precious, I can’t forget the road we have travelled. If things were different, I know we would have built something great.
To Be Continued…